the moments roll, down the hills of time, gentle hills at times. Still hills none the less... rolling, I don't know why they roll, it's in the air I guess. Anyway, Today is Tuesday, I sit here, stiff coffee in hand wondering what this moment is for. In the last few weeks I have tried to view each moment as a gift from God. I know that may sound pretty lame, I don't really care. I think we all should feel a little freer to be lame. If we all knew how lame we all are then we would stop looking down on other people cause of their lameness. So yes, let's be lame.
I stagger, not sure why, this world is so. I laugh and joke at it's perplex spin. I don't know what to do when I think that my life is something I need to tame... I feel more and more like the bad examples I used to hear about Christians, or any person with a faith in something bigger than themselves. Is religion a crutch, YES. all religion is a crock and a crutch, in that it's relationship that we should be finding ourselves in, not religion, that's all I hear these days, religious this and this is the specifics our your beliefs as contrasted to mine, so we can't be friends... ha... I laugh.. in shame... isn't that odd.. almost as odd as trying to buy our way to heaven, which I do all the time...
Being a kid raised around the church in one form or another I was exposed to allot of the religion. That structure that truly can breath life into our relationship with God through Christ Jesus or kill that very thing... I felt more and more that it was killing my relationship with God. My belief there was faded and tucked away. I don't know why God has me here, I sometimes think it's to show all the smart morons that there is more to this life then big words, but they don't seem to listen so that can't be it... anyway still looking into why I am here... if you know drop me a line, I would love to hear it... b