a very uncomfortable place

i still think about it

yes, i still think about having a child. lindsey is having a boy in four months, and michelle is pregnant again, so now i'm watching two women at work grow and lavish in their children. alas, i am not ready, but then i am. but the financial stability outweighs the maternal instinct. i want my child to have the best life possible, thus i will wait until i am stable to have one. besides, lindsey is my age and her pregnancy is accidental. michelle has been married several years and this will be her second child. i must wait until i finish vet school, though i fear it will be a long time yet before i can. oh well. we've found a place not even five minutes from my parents house. within walking distance. it even has a fenced in yard! sere will be pleased. i was thinking about asking carl if he wanted to move in with us since he has no place to go, but matt seems to be a bit against it. claims he doesn't know carl that well. but i've known him for a while, and he is a good guy with a stable job. oh i don't know, we may enjoy being alone for a bit before we ask someone to move in with us. it's a two bedroom duplex. this will be my first time living with neighbors so close. i pass it every morning on the way to work. it's calling to me. matt will know by monday i think if he can keep the job. oh man i cannot wait! school starts monday, kind of scared. trying my hand at chemistry. with all new professors too, because the ones who have taught it for years left unexpectedly. i mean they gave notice and everything, but i think they had to cancel the summer chem class. okay, i suppose that is enough about my personal life. not many people i know read this. :) thanks for listening anyway.