hi.
I'll write some more on NY later.. but I will say that it was an unbelievable trip.
Absolutely.
I have video of it, so as soon as i get the right equipment, I'll rip it to my computer and post some snippets for ya'll to see;)
I had a blast!... but if i could change one thing, I would +++ the partying. the GROUP partying ;)))
lots of drool-worthy guys in our group.
and leading our group.
but they are more than that, by all stretches of the imagination;)
I must step lightly...
*licks*
oh, yeah i guess since it was an art co-op trip.. i should mention that all of the art was amazing. I simply couldnt get enough of it.
I want to go back.
who's with me?
damn. too bad life .comes with consequences.
can't be messing with the time/space continuum and all that.
;)
wellll then
its 4:33 Am. just got home from being out with friends..
Had a lot of fun!! but a long day.
Today was the first day of spring!!!
and you know, i cant think of a better way to spend it.

I went to a rally race tdoay. IT was rockin'. Never seen anything like it..
lots of waiting beforehand, but after being out in the sun, i was totally dehydrated and tired.
Did manage to get videotape of it.. after i figure all of it out (you know, in all my spare time.) i'll hopefully get a video online of it.
It was the World Pro-Rally Tour or something like that.
I got an awesome redneck tan.
Saw Hopsing Project at R&b tonight too :)
They covered Tiny Dancer. ****
:)))
Afterwards I was invited over to a house party.. where funnily enough we ended up playing what they called win lose or draw.. but it was basically pictonary;)
All in all, a long day.. but very fun :))
I'm kinda tired, but have to admit I'm considering pulling an all-nighter.
hmmm...
The Loft.
4:45 am.
If i take the early shift, I'd be at work in 45 minutes.
Hey
its tired and im late.
I wanted to make a quick post about the most generous thing a teacher has ever done in a class.
My professor Ms. R.T. did the most awesome thing today.
Our class has been collaborating on a book project for the past 3 weeks, and we finally.. finally had the final class to finish it up and move on in a new direction.
The title of the book is "The Way All The Other Apple Eaters Look At Things"
So today, we were in class as usual, and were called out into the hallway after a noticeable delay. The class all filed out, curious to see what in the world she was doing.. and on this shelf along the hallway, R.T. had set up this...i don't know what to call it.. display!? of all kinds of apply food! There were apples, apple granola, apple cereal, apple juice, apple crisps, peeps! starbursts and suckers! My mouth fell open when I saw it!!! I couldn't believe she had gone through so much trouble!!! It was an incredible treat for everyone.. and of course, being the graphic design teacher that she is, it was very fashionably presented!!!
lol omg i had to give her a hug...and I really really wish I had my camera... I could have cried and I am sad that I didn't capture that moment on film. So,I am trying my best to recall it in words.
After the initial shock and food raid! the entire class cranked up the music and wandered around the hallway and lab talking and laughing.. and basically just having a party! ooommg it was so much fun!!
heehee.. the drawing professor from the classroom down the hall came up to this supposed "mass chaos" of a class and was like.. what's going on?!?!
I, being the smartass that I am, stuck my head in the doorway to the lab (where we have all macintosh computers)laughed and said, "We're really fired up about our mac lab!"
thankfully, R.T. got the joke ;)))
goodnight! and I'm uberhappy to report such a generous, touching and happy moment. I really will cherish this memory of college, and will so far hold it as one of the nicest things a professor has ever done for my class.
:~)
its funny how its the smallest things (even though this was a big thing!)that count, that touch our memories, and become something we hold dearest in our hearts...for the rest of our lives.
How great a difference one life, one action, one moment can make.
You will never know how your actions affect others, how deep an impression you make in other lives.
Treasure each moment.
Life, love is too brief.
He who grasps, loses
But He who does not take advantage of the life he's given...
and now that i feel all darn romantic and sadly beautiful, an even smaller experience to share:
i felt like such a good student today. Doing research in the library.. on a really cool topic! that's too complicated and not quite together yet to write about here (soon perhaps..) but I actually didn't want to go to class, surprised at wanting to stay and read and read!!
(psychoanalytical explorations in art)
more later..
**Love*
ok
so i make an appt with student health services on monday cause im feelin just awful.
the appt is wed at 1.
the appt was so far away, that im already getting better.
i should have called 2 weeks ahead of time and made plans to be sick for the 15th.
inside joke...

I'm going to send her this picture a couple months down the road...
He who grasps loses.

I am ever thankful of my continuous state of renewal.
Moving Forward,
Keeping Still.
ecstaticated by my own self worth
a reveling in the soft white
that clouds the sky
and not mine eyes.
Discovery of such only though the absence
of what I once held dear
and realization coming
forward
with no inside, outside or middle
an exchange for peace
by an exchange of piece.
falling to your hands
id resign my spirit
in
trust
my
self-righteous suicide of
i cry. when angels dissapear
in night.
and a resignation of
lonliness
even though the need
is still there.
trust
in
my,
The grass was greener
The light was brighter
The taste was sweeter
The nights of wonder
With friends surrounded
The dawn mist glowing
The water flowing
The endless river
So what is the determining point between justification and lonliness?
Is the realization of lonliness being distinct from a need of purpose enough?
To justify oneself as being a solitary being, all on your own
to make yourself happy
i feel that lonliness is just a part of the realization
that some perfer companionship over solitude.
Though perhaps the ideal
is a balance of both.

I think that is something that is different for each person encountered.
whether it is friendships, a sisterhood, or relationship.
Changing one another does not occur.
Changing attitude is controlled by you.
My deconstructivist view even pervades my hair products.
regis pomade:

so it was pretty cool today, got to trade out the wrong pomade for the right stuff.
i had "shine" pomade.. without the hold.
I gotta have the shine and the hold.
and the hold.
more on the post modernist view:
So whats with this "post-modernist" title anyway
i must be in the future.. cause im after the present.
I don't totally agree with all of this, but here's a pure post-modernist point of view.
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features in the table below are only tendencies, not absolutes. In fact,
the tendency to see things in seemingly obvious, binary, contrasting categories
is usually associated with modernism. The tendency to dissolve binary categories
and expose their arbitrary cultural co-dependency is associated with postmodernism.
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| linear | multi-pathed |
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| cause-effect | synchronicity |
| logical | spiritual |
| centered | dispersed |
| uniformity | diversity |
| hierarchical | anarchical |
| authoritarian | democratic |
| patriarchy | non-patriarchy; feminism |
| monism | pluralism |
Yeahh
so i guess i should update my blog.
im on spring break!
got a *cute* white off the shoulder top today.
hearing all kinds of stuff
having videos of good nature visiting and near makin me cry
drinkin at shows..
starting to write in a journal.
tat healing well
waiting for it to get warm so i can tan...
cant wait for it to fade...
J bones!
yeah this all seems random...
show is going down on thursday
just chillin here listenin to some rizap.. Ying Yang Twinz done done it again;)
I swear, i love the bass hits.
I love the bass hits.
...
mmmm dieselboy;)))
I really want a video camera.
though back in my old skool days, those got me into enough trouble.
hopefully this time around it will be put to more... artistic uses.
DAMN IT FEEL SSO GOOD TO BE ON SPRING BREAK
i actually signed onto AIM today. :o
damn u ppl need to see this site and download these videos
this shits hilarious:
http://scottyfox.com/fredryk/
ahhmmmm
ok wat else is new?
getting ignored sucks.
yeah.
but it was an absent minded ignoredness sprung from a lack for social finness...
not saying im my own product line, but damn.
a girl gets pretty alone in a bar when she came with someone, and doesnt know anyone else... and isnt getting introduced or even included in conversations.
juiced my contacts fora ll they were worth that night
i was actually bored.
kinda dissapointed :\
wheres the line of polite, too shy or socially anxious?
yeah.
i want to start a new entry.
YEs! By executive decision, it has been determined. This is the best invention for today's kitchen!
(Besides the corkscrew.)
This thing is marvelous! It makes it so easy to get all of the batter out of the bowl... no having to sit there and scrape multiple times with a spoon.. one swipe and its done!
Teflon friendly, you can use it while cooking, and it gets rid of those left-on-thesideofthepan crusties... you know what im talkin about.

BUT!
There is one problem here...
What the heck is this thing called?!??
Look it up on google.
go ahead.
whats the name of it?
If it has one, i just don't know it.. so.. any culinary whizzes out there?
On a cooking website its category is "utensils".. and its called a "spatula"
Not only is the end of it different than the flipping pancake kind.. but it is used in a totally different manner, and regular spatulas cant touch this things swiping power.
Alright, alright. I'll accept it being categorized as a "spatula"..
but this poor abused and forgotten utensil needs a unique name.
Any ideas?! 8*
.....
heehehe
so anyway, off this random tangent of oppressed kitchen utensils and back to work;P